The Awesomest Loser Ever

America loves a winner. We don't care what you do on the weekends; if you win eight gold medals in a single Olympics, Michael Phelps, we will frame a picture of you, set it on our nightstand, and kiss it goodnight (I hope I'm not the only one). Duke and the Yankees have plenty of detractors, but it wouldn't be March without Mike Krzyzewski prowling the sidelines or October without pinstripes. It's the winners who get the ovations. It's the winners who visit the White House. The winners beam and wave as confetti collects on their shoulders and "We are the Champions" blares. The losers are still kneeling on the court/track/turf, hands on head, mouth slightly ajar, still too stunned to cry. They have our respect, but our adoration belongs to another.

That's why, if I live to be 1000 (which, as I understand Christianity, is exactly what will happen), I will never get tired of Revelation 5:9-10. Perhaps more than any other text in Scripture, it demonstrates the utter upside-down-ness of the Christian message. This part of the book of Revelation is a scene in the throne room of heaven, and a bunch of mighty angelic beings are singing this song to Jesus:

"Worthy are you to take the scroll and to open its seals, for you were slain..." (Rev 5:9)

"Jesus, you are so unbelievably awesome, because you got yourself killed." With stuff like this in its holy book, how did this religion ever make it to the top? How did a religion built around the veneration of a martyred rabbi even survive to 2010, much less establish itself on every continent and in every nation on the planet? What was it about this death that made it not a tragedy, but a victory to be praised forever in heaven? Read on.

"Worthy are you to take the scroll and to open its seals, for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God from every tribe and language and people and nation, and you have made them a kingdom and priests to our God, and they shall reign on the earth." (Rev 5:9-10)

Jesus' death was a win because he did something by it. What looked to the world like just another state-sponsored execution was in fact the greatest upset, come-from-behind, buzzer-beating victory in history. When Jesus' enemies thought that they had crushed his sect once and for all by murdering its leader, in reality they had accomplished exactly what Jesus intended: salvation for his people. Rome didn't crucify Jesus against his will; Jesus offered himself to God as a sacrifice, as a substitute, in the place of untold millions who deserved the death penalty for their rebellion against God. He ransomed them, bought them out of captivity to sin and the fear of death, and delivered them to his Father so that they might be a people for God's own possession, who will reign with him forever and ever (cue Hallelujah Chorus). What looked like defeat was actually the greatest win ever, and the more we learn of Christ, the more amazing it will seem. This event, this cross, will occupy our fascination and our praise for endless ages in heaven.

One of the things that most assures me of the truth of Christianity is that it defies all the conventional wisdom. No man thought this up. Only God could have veiled the most important victory in history in the guise of its most ignominious defeat. Only in the mind of the Almighty could the face of a champion, the Champion, be that of a man struggling for breath, blinking sweat and blood out of his eyes, squinting in the desert sun, with a mouth so parched that he could barely gurgle out a prayer. The Christian message is that God himself became a man, went willingly to his own execution, and by his death gave life to all who believe. And to prove that his sacrifice was effectual, he rose on the third day to tell us about it.

What has your worldview done for you lately?

Two Roads Diverged

There are two ways for sin to be covered:

Psalm 32

1Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven,
whose sin is covered.
2 Blessed is the man against whom the Lord counts no iniquity,
and in whose spirit there is no deceit.

3 For when I kept silent, my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was dried up as by the heat of summer.

5 I acknowledged my sin to you,
and I did not cover my iniquity;
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,”
and you forgave the iniquity of my sin.

Either you can cover your sin, concealing it, pretending it hasn't happened and isn't happening, that it isn't so bad and that God doesn't sweat the small stuff, or you can confess it and he can cover it, seeing it, grieving it, and joyfully forgiving it all because of his Son's life, death, and resurrection in our place. On the first road, you'll waste away. On the second, you'll enjoy the happiness of communion with the God who for some reason loves drawing near to those who repeatedly draw back from his best. It's your choice.

Hey, choose life.

Reason #574 Why it's Good to Read the Psalms: You Realize What a Wuss You Are

Psalm 31 (A Psalm of David)

11 Because of all my adversaries I have become a reproach,
especially to my neighbors,
and an object of dread to my acquaintances;
those who see me in the street flee from me.
12 I have been forgotten like one who is dead;
I have become like a broken vessel.
13 For I hear the whispering of many—
terror on every side!—
as they scheme together against me,
as they plot to take my life.

14 But I trust in you, O Lord;
I say, “You are my God.”
15 My times are in your hand;
rescue me from the hand of my enemies and from my persecutors!
16 Make your face shine on your servant;
save me in your steadfast love!

After reading something like this ("Everyone in my life either avoids me or tries to kill me, but it's cool, because You're on it"), it gets pretty hard to pray, "Lord, I'm in such despair because of this traffic! I'm going to be ten minutes late to work! O why have you forsaken me? Where is your steadfast love of old?"

Why I'm Marrying Her

Seven months ago today, with sweaty palms and a determined avoidance of eye contact, I asked Kim Solari if she would ever consider going on a date with me. Four months from today, God willing, we will be married. One of my favorite things about Kim is her willingness to tell me when I'm being an idiot. I want to give you a small window into how this works.

Last week Kim and I had plans to bring to my BFF and his wife, recently home from the hospital after the birth of their third child, a hot meal to give them a break from cooking. I, neither for the first nor last time, was running significantly late. I got out of class late, traffic was worse than I thought it would be, and Portillo's (Did you think I was going to bring something homemade? Who do you think that I am?) didn't have the order ready when I arrived. By the time I picked Kim up to head over to their house, I was angry at everything.

"Why are you upset?" she asked.

"I hate being late," I said. "I wanted to give Bryan and Amy a break from cooking, but now we're bringing dinner late, the food is cold, and they're going to have to start feeding the girls before we get there, so we can't all eat together." I deliberated about whether to say what I was really thinking. I went for it. "Honestly, I just want to be the hero. I want to be everyone's hero all the time. And I can't. And I'm angry about it."

"Honey," she began gently. "You're not supposed to be the hero. That's not how the story goes." Thoughtful pause. "If you were everyone's hero, we'd all be going to hell."

Touché.

"A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in a setting of silver." (Prov 25:11)

Help for Weak Hands

I had an alarming experience last Sunday. I was standing in CrossWay's lobby during the time of corporate singing at youth group, and these were the words we were endorsing together: "Your blood has washed away my sin/Jesus, thank you/The Father's wrath completely satisfied/Jesus, thank you" (you know if it has the word "wrath," it must be a Sovereign Grace song). As I sang, I found myself wondering, is this really true? The Father's wrath completely satisfied? I began to scan my memory for Scripture passages that would undergird the precious truth that Jesus, on the cross, took all of God's anger against my sin...and I came up empty-handed. I had nothing.

After a few minutes the juices started flowing again, but I knew that I needed to do something to get the truth of the gospel back in the front of my mind. This week I started using John Piper's The Passion of Jesus Christ in my devotions. It has fifty short meditations on what the Bible teaches about what Jesus accomplished on the cross (it has since been retitled Fifty Reasons Why Jesus Came To Die).

When you feel the need (I assume I'm not the only one!) to firm up your grasp on the truth of the gospel, what helps you?

Playing to the Cheap Seats, or, Everybody Loves a Baby

One of the great things about holidays is the opportunity to take group pictures. I give you the Wendles, present, future, and honorary (clockwise from top left): my parents Bill and Marg, my fiancee Kim, me, my brother-in-law Micaiah, my nephew David, and my (twin) sister Erin. The smiles aren't faked. We actually like each other.

And just for good measure, here are a few pictures of my nephew being adorable over the early months of this year:

New Year's Day.

1st birthday.

Easter.

Even Easter is Just an Echo

Three hours ago I was sitting in a church building mourning the death of the Lord Jesus two thousand years ago. Eleven hours from now I'll be in another church building mourning a much more recent departure. A friend's mother passed away from cancer last Tuesday, and tomorrow morning Kim and I will, in what limited way we can, join him in the mingled sorrow and relief that accompanies the death of a Christian after a prolonged illness. Shu-Lang quietly passed into fullness of joy in the presence of her Savior, leaving a gaping chasm in the lives of those who have the (mis?)fortune to remain. We know we should rejoice with her, but we feel quite unable to participate in a joy we cannot witness and in which we cannot join. Her final healing is abstraction; her absence is concrete.

Tomorrow is the day before Easter. On Sunday morning, as young girls file into church with their pressed pink dresses and patent leather shoes and mothers work determinedly to remove the last smears of chocolate from the cheeks of their sons, what hope will Easter offer to my friend and to his father? Will warm wishes and hearty laughs ease his ache, or will his grief be a pane-glass window between him and the others, allowing him to see the celebration but keeping him from being embraced by it? Can the most golden-tongued preacher offer anything to my friend but the cold comfort that once upon a time God's Son rose from the dead?

Tomorrow is the day before Easter, the day we remember the long, lonely silence between the death-cries of Calvary and the triumphal shout of resurrection. In a way, that Saturday never really ended. Yes, Jesus awoke in the dark of the tomb and emerged victorious over death, sin, and Satan, and ascended to his rightful place at the right hand of the Father on high. Hallelujah! But his followers have yet to fully share in that victory. We have eternal life but are still subject to death. Sin's chains are broken but the shards pierce us still. Satan is no longer our master, but he haunts our windows and doors. We still live between cross and crown. We're still waiting on daybreak.

You see, even Easter is just an echo, a reverberation through time declaring that just as the Lord has risen, so we will all rise. My friend's hope tomorrow is not merely that Jesus didn't stay dead, but that through his life we will all come alive in the end. At the end of all things Shu-Lang will burst from the ground and shine like the sun in the kingdom of her Father. She will shower laughter upon her sons, and they will turn together with unshielded eyes and unveiled faces towards the Light of the world. Tomorrow, just as Jesus' followers once laid his body in Nicodemus' tomb, Shu-Lang will be laid in the ground. And one day, just as Jesus burst forth with a shout, so will she. Tomorrow my friend will mourn. One day, he will laugh for joy. Easter isn't an escape from sorrow. It's a declaration that sorrow will not have the last word, that all believers in Christ, whose bodies are sown in the earth, will reap a harvest of imperishable life, that every tear will by wiped away, that on a day soon arriving all shall be well, all shall be well, and every manner of thing shall be well. Happy Easter.

The Unflinching Poetry of Scripture

"Why is light given to a man whose way is hidden, whom God has hedged in? For my sighing comes instead of my bread, and my groanings are poured out like water. For the thing I fear comes upon me, and what I dread befalls me. I am not at ease, nor am I quiet; I have no rest, but trouble comes." -Job 3:23-26

"Why, O LORD, do you stand afar off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?" -Psalm 10:1

One of the things I love about Scripture is its refusal to give pat answers to hard questions. Christianity does not offer a neat and tidy package of truth and technique that will make the whole world suddenly make sense and work right. Not any kind of biblical Christianity, anyway. The poetry of Scripture, which you might expect to be uniformly ebullient with care-free praise, is rather full of lament, the cries of holy men who know God and to whom God's ways still don't make sense. They know he's faithful. They know he's good. (He is, isn't he?) But their experience confirms none of it. They undergo loss, and they can't see any good coming out of it. They are on the run for their lives, and they've done nothing to deserve it. In the moment when they long for the comfort of God, their voice echoes in emptiness. If God is good, why's he so hard to find? Why does he hide himself in times of trouble?

The God of Christianity, the God of Scripture, the God who is, is breathtakingly free. This is in a sense the heart of what it means to be sovereign. None can stay his hand. He tames Leviathan and Behemoth; no one tames him. God is always faithful to his word, but he is free to fulfill it when and where he pleases (HT: VG), which is rarely convenient to humans. He will do what he will do. One day we may cry out to no avail. The next, when we are looking for anything else, God will suddenly break upon our souls with a vision of his friendly heart. Where was that yesterday? And as soon as it has come, the break in the clouds has sealed up again.

The longer I walk with God, the less I look to my experience to be my tutor in God's ways. The great knowers of God knew better. God is wild; he can't be predicted or pigeonholed. He must rather be trusted, trusted even with our doubt. God could have kept only the happy psalms in Scripture, but he handed down the laments as well. He's not embarrassed by our questions. Neither does he commend them. But he surely understands. In fact, today, Maundy Thursday, we remember that God himself, kneeling in a garden near Jerusalem, called out and was not given his heart's desire, that the cup of God's wrath on the sin of humanity would pass from him. He was strengthened but not delivered. The next day, even more horrifically, he cried out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" In one of the magnificent paradoxes of all-time, God himself knows what it's like to feel, to be forsaken by God. He can sympathize. Whatever the reason for the desolations we experience, it's not because he doesn't understand, or because he doesn't love.

In the end, we can't know God for real without knowing him on the cross. If God became a man, died in our place, and rose from the dead, then no matter our experience, we know he's out there, and we know he's love. Sure, the things he does seem not to make sense. Sure, he hides himself in times of trouble. But he's good, and though we can't trust him to be predictable, we can trust him to be God. And if he's who he showed himself to be in Christ, that's very good news.