I like blogging, but...

...I'm not crazy about how much blogging tempts me to think about myself. I thought about the blog within one minute of waking up this morning, and before I was out of bed I was already fiddling with the layout. I tried different colors for the text. I want to seem artsy, but I don't want to seem like I'm trying too hard. Then, in the shower, I was contemplating whether I should write something in the "About Me" box. Something profound, but not pretentious. Something spiritually significant, but not preachy or heavy-handed. No, just leave it. The internal dialogue continued in my devotions. I just had a good thought - should I blog about it? How would I phrase it? Does it seem like I'm showing off? Wait, I'm supposed to be praying!

The wretched truth of the matter is that I'm a selfish person. I care deeply, idolatrously, about what people think of me, and I want to manage my image to earn your worship. Blogging's just the way it's coming out today. I haven't decided whether I want to move forward with blogging (is this battle with self-preoccupation going to be mainly sanctifying or mainly discouraging?), but I know that blogging's not to blame. My great need is for inner transformation, for cleansing and quickening, for the Spirit to so flood my heart with visions of the greatness of God that thinking about myself seems insufferably mundane in comparison. Let it be so for all of us!